decision

We make decisions throughout our life. In fact, we need knowledge and determination to make decision. We have seen plenty of life experiences, be able to differentiate what is right or wrong and also capable of looking for the best solution to solve problems.

When thing comes to it depends, there is no solution. Normally, it is either choosing between left or right but it seems so hard to choose one of the ways. Indeed, we have to consider lots of the factors that affecting the decision making.

So, what is the best solution? It depends. Therefore we can only find the best suitable decision according to that particular time regarding on that particular situation. Any of the solution is only one of the ways to solve the existed problem but we can’t guarantee if it is a right or wrong decision. Time will tell. Again, it depends. This is because every different situation has too many factors affecting the decision making and also gives influence to determination. Therefore, certain theories can apply to this situation but not on the other situations, as every single situation is unique. Again, it depends.

Unless, someone can tells you that which path is the correct one. But unfortunately, there is no one.

hope

When there is a hope, we start to believe it again. Even though we know it might fall again but we would still like to give it a try. No matter how hard we try, we may fall 100 times but we just need 1 time to get success. Hope always gives us the motivation and courage to keep trying. But how do we know if it is worthwhile. So, sometimes it is good if we get to know how the story ends at the beginning.

Sometimes, it is different on what we read in our mind and what we see in our heart. Deep inside the heart, we want to do it this way, but there is always an objection in our mind to stop us. In fact, my mind tells me to give up, but my heart won't let me. Therefore, do we actually listen to our heart or follow on what what our mind are thinking about.

Anyway, make small decisions with your brain, but huge decisions with your heart.

don't quit

When things go wrong as they sometimes will
When the road you're trudging seems all uphill
When the funds are low and the debts are high
And you want to smile, but you have to sigh

When care is pressing you down a bit
Rest, if you must, but don't quit

Life is queer with its twists and turns
As everyone of us sometimes learns
And many failure turns about
When he might have won had he stuck it out
Don't give up though the pace seems slow
You may succeed with another blow

Success is failure turned inside out
The silver tints of the clouds of doubt
And you can never tell how close you are
It may be near when it seems so far

So stick to the fight when you're hardest hit
It's when things seem worst that you must not quit

little sun, star and moon

Once upon a time

Little sun and star are good partners

They chat happily and encouraging each others

Gradually

Little sun realized that his feeling toward the star was beyond friend

By the time little sun perceived it

Little sun found out that star had fallen in love with the moon

Unfortunately ...

No wonder the little sun and the star cannot occur at the same time

* Copied from PK's blog *

i will be fine

I will mind
How am I going to say good night if you aren't beside me
Not afraid waiting in the lonely night
I can see the memories shaking secretly
So, I will mind
Listening to a heart accompany me in a daze
Not afraid waiting in the lonely night
I can see the memories shaking secretly

I know you are not here
I can learn not to rely on you
You are so close in the sweet memories
But I can be independent
Love you
I know love is existed
There is no foggy area in my heart
The sun light in the wheat field
And the wind that we were familiar with
I will be fine

unhappy

So many things happened in so little time and we have to learn to expect the unexpected in life indeed.

I met a special girl. There were happy and sad moments but i would only remember those happiness that we had spent together. Although it was really short period of time but this is what i never experience before and i bet this is what we called love. It was really sweet though. I was thinking about you, thinking about me, thinking about us, where we gonna be but it was only just a dream now. It came so close at once but we didn't manage to make it in the end. Everything happens for a reason. Unfortunately, you told me you were not going to tell me the remaining part of your story and you just walked away not even turning back with a glance. This was hurt and it is still hurt because it happened just too sudden. I have to remove the habit of missing you everyday, although this is beyond my control but at least i am trying hard right now because i know you are not going to miss me anymore. I know i have to move on. I am still learning, growing to be more stronger and leading myself to the brighter path. But indeed, i need some more time to recover. And i tell myself i am going to stand up stronger each time after i failed.

Another disaster crashed in my study. I got to make a tough decision. Things always go wrong as unexpected. Seem like a decision to make, but i don't really have the choice. I have to choose either not to break my parents' heart or scarify my time. In the end, i chose not to break their heart because i understand how pain it is. The whole plan isn't goes smoothly as what i have planned and expected. But i got no choice now. Now, this is the only plan.

Life is about making decisions. Most of the time, you have the chance to make choices, but sometimes you don't. This is not the end of the world. Many people in this world had lost their families, homes and lives due to the natural disasters, and i am just losing a broken heart. Fall seven times, stand up eight! I got to keep moving on ...

manchester

Time flies, I have already spent 9 months in manchester. I have settled down in Salford and also successfully get a part time job in vermillion restaurant. Everything is good at the moment and i can still enjoy my study life until next june. I am planning to travel more places around in europe and may be US. But due to insufficient time and poor timetable of the classes, so all the plans have to put on hold. I will try my best to make them happens anyway.

good bye melbourne

It's about to close the chapter of Melbourne, several hours left to be on Kangaroo's land. First of all, I am glad i have completed my degree study with second honours 2A and looking forward for the new chapter. I am happy to see my family here to attend my graduation and we had a wonderful holiday although it was just about a week trip. We had been to Victoria Market, Mornington, Ballarat, Habour Town, Ethihad Stadium, Smith Street, etc. Unfortunately we could not make a trip to Great Ocean Road due to lack of time.

Once again, it's time to say good bye to all my beloved friends who entertained me for the past two years. Looking forward for the next meet up, i do hope this is not too far away and am trying to organize a gathering on next January.

Good bye RMIT, Punt Hill Apartment, South Kensington, Mesh Restaurant, QV, Melbourne Central, etc...

Good Bye Melbourne.

road to manchester

Finally, I got the offer from Salford University for next year February intake. I can't hide the happiness indeed but i will definitely miss Kch once again as i go back only for 4 weeks. That is kind of too fast and this will be the second year i can't celebrate Chinese New Year in Kch. Anyway, i hope the application for Visa to would not go into very complicated as i have not much time to deal with it. Once again, congratulation to myself. Road to Manchester is wide open now. Good Luck!

closing chapter

Time flies, i have graduated from RMIT as a degree holder of Construction Management. Unfortunately, i can't get the first class honour butt i am still satisfy with the overall result. Two more days, my parents and sister are coming from Malaysia, i haven't really plan where to bring them, there are only sovereign hill and mornington penisula in my mind so far, will figure out more places to go later. Anyway, i am glad to see them again and can't wait to go home : )

I have met a lots of great friends here and i find that leaving them is the saddest thing ever! Some of them are even just getting more close this year or final semester. Uni mates and futsal buddy from different states in Malaysia.... I will definitely miss thursday half price pizza in lygon street, Freddo's durian ice cream and every saturday futsal game in south kensington. Other than that, i enjoyed working in Mesh Restaurant and my supervisors and colleagues are all treated me nicely. I am heading back for a dinner buffet with my family on this coming saturday.

I am the luckiest one as i don't have to begin my job career after this, i am going to further my studies for master in United Kingdom. I appreciate that. Hope the application goes smoothly so that i could land myself in Manchester next year.

My chapter in Melbourne is coming to an end, although the desire that draw me to United Kingdom is far beyond to stay in Melbourne but i will definitely gonna miss this place so much. Once again, i appreciate that i got the options to choose. There are another ten more days left and lead me to the new chapter of my life.

discomfort

I have the feeling of being tired and slightly headache since Monday. It could probably be jet lag or the popular disease that has been attacking around the world, H1N1? I got now idea. It is not a severe headache but it always come with slightly pain which is annoying me nowadays. I have reset my biological clock into the behavior of healthy life. Are all that the symptoms of H1N1, or they are just the excuses of allowing myself continue slacking on the assignments or the presence of laziness to go to work?

mid sem break

I am leaving to Melbourne tomorrow. How fast is that? I have been enjoying my life in Kuching no doubt. The stupid test on this coming Tuesday does not allow me to stay much more longer in kch. But i have not prepare for the test yet and i am planning to have my revision in the 8 hours flight to Melbourne. The schedule for the progress of my assignment is largely fell behind as there is too many activites i can hang around in kch. I am expecting myself to struggle hard in the upcoming days and get everything done before meeting my supervisor, that is definitely a big task for me. Anyway, i have enjoyed my holidays to the max and makes me feel like not going back to melb. Kch is still a better place for that i can hang around with friends and my family indeed. I will definitely miss my new home and gucci. Can't wait to come back again in dec but i know time flies, so don't worries. I am looking forward to for the next return : ) Good Night.

final semester

Time flies, winter break has ended and the final semester has just started today. Everything seems like just happening yesterday. Well, i have a perfect timetable for this semester, i just have to attend classes for tuesday and wednesday. Pretty good ya? It's like what we normally called as honeymoon period. Hehe. Therefore, i get back my work shift on saturday night. I am still thinking whether to apply for another job since i got so much free time.

I am going to graduate soon. Hope everything is going fine and smoothly. This is definitely another stage of our life to make decision. I am the lucky one indeed as i can still have two options to choose if to study or work. Actually i already have a plan since long ago and i am starting working on it. Anyway, i hope that my plan is going well : )

winter break

Finally, all the assignments and exam are out of my mind now! But, i am worrying about 13 July, the date of release the result. I did not do quite well in my exam indeed so what i have to do now is keep praying hard for a pass for those subjects which are on the edge to the pass grade. Po bi Po bi. Since the day after my last paper, i feel so empty and nothing to do. My passion to games no longer to be determined but it seems like i am getting them back slowly. What to do, holiday what! Besides that, H1N1 is attacking Melbourne badly and it is definitely an annoying issue as i am going to Sydney soon. Hope everything is fine. So how am i going to spend for my holidays? No idea, can't really go anyway at the moment as H1N1 is spreading too strong and fast. Quarantine myself at home for movies and games? This is definitely not a good idea but it seem like nothing else can be done better than this.

Good Luck Alvin ^^,

short jokes

1. Losing all your friends

Man comes home, find his wife with his friend in bed.
He shoots his friend and kills him.
Wife says: "If you behave like this, you will lose ALL your friends"

2. Brother wanted

A small boy wrote to Santa Claus, "Send me a brother" ...
Santa replied, "SEND ME YOUR MOTHER" ...

3. Importance of a period

Teacher: "Do you know the importance of a period?"
Kid: "Yeah, once my sister said she has missed one, my mom fainted, dad got a heart attack and the driver ran away."

4. Confident vs. confidential

A young boy ask his his Dad, "What is the difference between confident and confidential?"
Dad says, "You are my son, I'm confident about that. Your friend over there, is also my son, that's confidential!"

5. Anger management

Husband: "When i get mad at you, you never fight back. How do you control your anger?"
Wife: "I clean the toilet."
Husband: "How does that help?"
Wife: "I use your toothbrush."

lack of motivation

Why do people only can concentrate on the work in the very last minute? Where is the motivation? Assignments were given out since the first two weeks, and now it's already week 7. I feel like did nothing for the past 49 days, but only a few tutorials. Sometimes, you study for the whole afternoon, it does not mean that the hours you have spent for doing revision are equals with the outcome. For me, the outcome is always can't reach my expectation. I am always progressing very slowly unless it is a very last minute work. People always get excuses like they will get distracted if they are studying at home but how about go to the library? I can only say it could be a little bit better but everything still go slowly. I just can't get fully concentration on my studies but day dreaming instead. What i understand is, if you really concentrate on it, you will pick up easily and install the knowledge into your brain. If you can't focus on it, you will never pick up although you sit in the library for the whole day. Anyway, no more slacking at this moment and i have to complete all those that are supposed to be done immediately. Keep it up! Cheers : )

irish college entrance exam

a capricious autumn

Autumn is the season when the leaves fall from the trees. It supposed to be cooled by the autumn breeze with comfortable weather but the condition in Melbourne is totally upside down. In fact, the leaves still drop from the trees but the temperature is not decreasing. It is getting hotter and hotter. Obviously, you would never predict how the weather could be. It can be a super hot day for today but it might rain tomorrow. The changeable temperature can easily cause a person to fall into sickness, that's why i am still have a bad cough now. 32 Celsius degree is not looking good for an autumn, that is no different with the weather in Malaysia!

shoo shoo virus

I have been being sick for almost a week but it looks like never has the sign of recover. At first, it was only sore throat but i went for horse riding during the freezing and windy weather last Sunday, without any jacket some more. That's why i keep coughing non stop until now. For the past three days, i can't fall asleep because of the non-stop coughing and this made me stay up until 6am in the morning. In fact, i went into my bed at 130am but i got up from the bed at the end.

I always think that after taking a good rest, sleep earlier or drink tons of water will enough for be to get better in the next day but i am totally wrong this time. I have tried honey and salt water but these only got a little effect for my sore throat. At last, i went to pharmacy yesterday and bought a medicine for dry coughs that cost me $18.

One thing that i remain unsure is, I will be not coughing so hardly whenever i am concentrate on playing games or watching movies. No distract at all. Anyway, i have to get well soon. I am sick of coughing 24 hours non-stop and all those chips, tim tam, juices are stand by-ing there for quite a long time.

lovely weekend

I love weekend so much now because i don't need to work. But, anyway i think i am going to work next week. Week 3 is gone and another new week is approaching. Don't know why i just feel like to stay at home and not going anyway today. I just want to enjoy my weekend. Generally, i am full of laziness especially in weekend. I just want to play, relax and enjoy since we study in weekdays! But, we all know what this is an excuse.